wowz! it's been a long time since I've blogged. But somehow, it seems that I normally blog when i'm troubled or bored. 4 months have already passed since i started work and now, there is a critical juncture in the lives of my 3 sisters and I. Yest, pastor talked to me about some stuff. things that are personal and close to my heart. things that have hurt me for so long a time. I finally understood why the people in church always shunned my mom. Like she had some plague or sth. I was always upset about it. Finally it has come to me, that what was told to me has also probably been repeated to many others around, especially the leaders. This is ethically LOW to handle a situation like this. The people's mind gets so polluted with stuff and they just run with HEARSAY. It has come to a stage where God cannot find anyone He can use to help her, that He needs to move her out. I finally understand. When she first left, I was sad, but I thought that if she is happy, then I'm fine. But after yesterday, I realised that I am VERY HAPPY she left. Left a church that cannot help or reach out to her. A place that will only oppress her just because the people are weak in their minds and spirit. Moreover, I don't understand how a person should be able to help by screaming and shouting at her. GARBAGE!

A very prominent example was when my mum asked someone in curch by the name of B*b about the furniture that she wanted for her kids, he just brushed her away. After that asked my sis to design sth for his company and didn't even inform her that her designs were not used. Nasty people I must say...sigh...is the word a "GOOD MAN" really an oxymoron???

When M** first said she wanted to leave, I was surprised but after that I thought just as well. If this relationship between Pastor n my mum goes on like this, it is only a matter of time that someone breaks. And she was the first. Now what, I'm supposed to talk to her that she would not. I am such a hyprocite....

God help me.....

I feel so helpless....

How can anyone expect me to prefer locals when my 3 uncles are so .................. *no comments*

Frankly speaking, I am so tired of it all....I just wanna leave...leave being caught in this situation. I just wanna be a kid again, where life was so much more beautiful....

A man has his pride and ego, but a woman cannot have both....GARBAGE

Respect your husband....wat kind of respect? the kind u give an elder, or the kind where u hold the person in high regard?

with a family like this, how can I hold any man in high regard....unless GOD gives a miracle.

Can't stand it when man thinks a woman can't live without him...GARBAGE!

the only peron I can't live without is GOD...no one else...Period

Trust no one but GOD.......................................................